My past self

Self-dialogue.

Do I regret it?
>No.

Really, u don't regret anything that ever happen in your life good and bad?
>All those memories made myself today. I learnt.

U don't bother people know about yourself, including those bad memories.
>I'm trying to convert all those bad memories into something positive. I don't expect people to forget, but I'm deeply hope I can be forgiven.
>Words are said, promises are made. I don't want to be someone who broke promises. I want to keep every single promise I made,  that's why I keep my memories.

Tebus kesalahan, mohon kemaafan, kotakan perjanjian.

Doa termakbul

Hidup ni penuh dugaan.
Doa termakbul, mungkin ujian.
Atau sebaliknya, mungkin juga ujian.

Sometime when I make doa, I wonder how long should I wait until Allah makbulkan my doa. Like, do I need to wait in 3 days, a week, one and half month or two years?
There are no specific formula human can think of. Our creator have everything planned for us. He wanted to test us and see how long can u istiqamah in your doa.

If we think we make same doa in a week, but still wasn't heard, we just stopped and think that He will not hear that doa, that is very wrong for us. Maybe He wanted us to make the same doa just for another one single day until be heard.

(this equation is just example, only He knew better)

So, let us keep our doa. This is istiqamah, kalau kita sentiasa ingat tuhan, tiada kebaikan akan sampai pada pencipta kita. Sebaliknya, jika kita berhenti, tiada juga kurangnya pada pencipta kita.

Istiqamah ini adalah untuk kebaikan kita sendiri. Semoga dgn istiqamah itu, iman senipis kulit bawang kita itu akan menjadi semakin menebal.

Sometime, we tend to forget once our doa heard. We stop to make more doa, or say Alhamdulillah when we get what we need. Disitu hilangnya istiqamah. Nauzubillah. Semoga kita dilindungi dari menjadi golongan2 yg sombong.

Jangan putus asa,
jangan putus harapan,
jangan mudah melatah,
jangan mudah merasa puas,
Istiqamahlah wahai hati.

Love letter

Dear my future wife,

I don't know who u are, where u are, how u look like and what u are doing right now, although I am very eager to know. I hope u are doing well with yourself.

Hope,
As for now, u are still under responsible of ur father and ur mother, I hope u always try hard to make them proud having a daughter like u. Keep them happy and pleased them, pour them with ur lovely cute smile that u always have since the day u were born. Refer them whenever u have even slightest confusion in ur life. I'm sure they will always be there for u. They are ur main focus as for now.

I will never doubt with ur `keturunan` as I know u will come from nicest people. Ur `harta` is not the one that I want because I will do my best to build up our own even though it may not be as good as what u are having now. Ur `kecantikan` will always be a bonus for me and I'm sure I will be the only one see ur `kecantikan` even other people don't, not only physically, but all of the factor that built up to it such as your personality. All that I ever wanted is for u to build up ur `agama`. I may not be good in my `agama` also, but if u do, Subhanallah, that is the biggest wedding gift from u that I can get.

My future wife,
When the time come, u will be under my full responsibility. I may not be the best person in this world. I am not the smartest of all humankind, not the toughest masculine person, not even macho or handsome in any possible way. I do have `black past` which I am highly hope it can be forgiven. I may be the most annoying person alive, hardest to understand and not an easy going person, all I ever wonder if u can accept me as a humble servant who always try to become a better person.

For u, I am preparing myself to be the best. The one u can rely on, the one who can protect u, the only shoulder u ever needed, the one who have all the answers beside our Creator, Al-Quran and Hadith. I want to be the one that can bring smile every second in ur life, the one take care of u when u at the lowest point in your life, the one who are there beside u at every emotional feeling u are having weather it is happy or sad. But for a small favour, remember, I will always have my mom who will always be my top priority after The Creator and Muhammad (pbuh).

Until that time come,
Please take good care of yourself. Whenever u go out, please dress properly, if u ever wonder u dress proper enough, ask yourself, would u perform solah in that outfit. I am not asking u to wear jubah, dress or baju kurung all the time, even some jubah are not suitable to perform solah and I am sure u know it better than me. Even simple jeans and long sleeved shirt will do. I hope u get what i mean. All I ever wanted is for u to appreciate yourself like no one else. I hope I am not asking too much from u.

U don't have to blame yourself if u ever had `black past`. All that matter are our future being together, going and moving forward together, keep reminding to each other and being blessed by completing one of highest sunnah, being a married believers. Don't let that `black past` prevent us to be together earlier.

Lets learn more together, get blessed life together, stay young together, and always be together.

Looking forward to know u. :)

Sincere,
Your future husband.

Hambek kau, baek punya fefeeling.

Keeping promise

When someome keep their promise, it show u how respectful kind of person they are.

But when they managed to hold away all impossible things in order to keep their promise, is something that should be always remember of.

Sometime we dont even realise we are on promise, thats the drawback we get when talk too much.

Lets beware of with our words, but not be too aware of it until we are afraid to pour any.

Go kingsman part 2!
(mode baru abes tgk kingsman)